Ugh, boys…

They text you first then they end the conversation. Like, I don’t get it. Why text me in the first place if you’re not gonna keep the conversation going? It’s a waste of my time. And if I say I’ll call, I will but they won’t ever. Really, I just wanna smash all my devices so they can’t get a hold of me. So I don’t waste my time sitting here thinking about them, waiting for them to make a move first. Ugh, stupid boys. You’d think after all the relationships they’ve been through they’d know by now but I guess not. Ugh, stupid boys.

IDK, I don’t even find you all that attractive

but a huge part of me wants you to text me back so I know it’s okay to put myself out there. If you don’t, it’ll only solidify the fact that I can’t be friends with boys cuz I’m ugly.

Sometimes I feel like no one understands me

I’m starting to hate myself more everyday.

You ever just feel so lonely that you can’t explain it to anyone?

This loneliness hurts so much tonight and I don’t even know why.

It sucks SO much when I need comfort and there’s no one here for me

It’s fucking pathetic because I’m surrounded by people who tell me I can rely on them but they’re not even here. not. one. person.

You don’t know what YOU’re missing out on

I’m such a great girl. I honestly don’t know why you friend zoned me, let me make a list for you.

I’m genuinely SO caring and kind, you don’t even know.

I’m compassionate.

I’m intelligent.

I have a big, giving heart.

I’m funny as hell.

I’m “wicked” cute too.

I have a great personality.

I’m understanding.

I have one fucking positive outlook on life.

I’m fun-loving.

I’m fucking witty.

I’m dedicated.

I’m so damn emotionally strong.

I’m fucking reliable, you of all people should know that.

I’m also patient as fuck.

I’d never leave you stranded.

I’m thoughtful AND considerate.

I’d fucking love you like no one else has ever loved you.

Now you think about why you don’t like me like that. Got any good reasons besides “I just don’t see you that way”? No? Then FUCK YOU.

I can’t believe I came back to this shit

Honestly, I should’ve stayed in California but that’s okay. Coming back has only confirmed more that going away was a good choice for me. I can’t wait to fucking go back to the only place where I am happy.